You Completed a Decade Appa

it’s been ages I haven’t posted anything for my blog. I almost forgot about it but today I again felt like writing something for myself, I didn’t find any better place to pour my feeling out, nothing could be a better place than this because whenever I feel low, happy or super excited , this has been the place where I always come. I remember last time I wrote about my Appa and made a post long time back ( I dunno how many of y’all have read that though) and today again I came back to you all hoping y’all support me as always you’ve been supporting y’all will read my post again and give some time to my attemp to be so expressive to you all. I wanna write about someone who is so dear to me that I have never ever felt his absence in my life. Yes, I’m gonna talk about my Daddy Appa or rather I will talk to him through this post and I hope he listens to me and my message reaches to him and my love right from the bottom of my heart to his heart ❤️.

         It’s been a decade since you left us and went but it never ever felt like you’re not there with us.     Appa you stay everywhere around us.
   

My Hero. You were, you are and you’ll always be.

 You are there in the dance of Christmas and Easter, in the birthday celebration of every family member, in the arguments among us, in the conversation about Amma being adamant sometime, in the conversation about you being a better cook than Amma, in the conversation about you being more hardworking and energetic than Anthony (my younger bro), in the conversation about you being so bias and protective for Vailankanny (my younger sister) in the conversation about me being so idle and fighter cock, in the conversation about Dwight Jones getting up late and nihari daalpuri  (it is one of the well known breakfast for Anglo Indians in Kolkata)😂😂 in the conversation of every get together and parties, in the conversation for making outgoing plans and last but not least in the conversation about Erica (my daughter) not being pampered by you 😢😢 we know that you loved babies so much that you showered your love to all the kids of our neighbors but I never imagined my baby would be left without it. I still feel that God had taken you very early because I never thought that there’d be days when my baby won’t have someone to call Appa. But still I don’t have any complain against Jesus because whatever he does he does for our betterment. I know you’re more than happy and content out there with Him. You’re watching over us and you’re watching Erica too. Oh! I guess You must be laughing over the things she does na? because she has got the best of you in being a comedian, the acting and making faces and all.

Bless her and watch over her Appa❤️

She sees your pic and calls you “taataa” and I promise you when she grows up I will let her know that she really have missed a teddy bear hug and a protector. I may not miss anything in life but you for Erica will always give me a feeling of that void place being there. You’ve always been my support system, you always were with me in my wrongs and rights. And I can say you are the very first partner-in-crime of mine (I used to bunk school and surprisingly you knew it) I can’t even ask for more 5-6 years from God for you to see Erica but then I feel “why not??”  There are people who live so long and God bless them; why didn’t God bless us having you for more years??😢🥺 but it’s destiny and we cannot do anything about it , just accept it and move on and always thank God for whatever he has done. Appa I just wanna say please watch over Erica and bless her.

Like father Like daughter

I love you and I always regret fighting with you 😭😭 people always realize the value of someone when they’re gone, and I am the unlucky one and the bad one to hurt you always. I am sorry Appa and I’m sorry for the times I wronged you. You have left so many memories to cherish but cry. It’s been 10 years but tears still seems fresh for your loss. It feels it has happened just yesterday. We have been strong and moved on but we always feel incompleteness of our family photo, We love you and we always do and we miss you until we meet. Be happy wherever you are. Have a great time with Jesus in his kingdom. I looooooooooooooove you. Erica loves you Appa. Kiss and hugs from her to you. We miss you , miss you a lot 😘😘😘😘