You Completed a Decade Appa

it’s been ages I haven’t posted anything for my blog. I almost forgot about it but today I again felt like writing something for myself, I didn’t find any better place to pour my feeling out, nothing could be a better place than this because whenever I feel low, happy or super excited , this has been the place where I always come. I remember last time I wrote about my Appa and made a post long time back ( I dunno how many of y’all have read that though) and today again I came back to you all hoping y’all support me as always you’ve been supporting y’all will read my post again and give some time to my attemp to be so expressive to you all. I wanna write about someone who is so dear to me that I have never ever felt his absence in my life. Yes, I’m gonna talk about my Daddy Appa or rather I will talk to him through this post and I hope he listens to me and my message reaches to him and my love right from the bottom of my heart to his heart ❤️.

         It’s been a decade since you left us and went but it never ever felt like you’re not there with us.     Appa you stay everywhere around us.
   

My Hero. You were, you are and you’ll always be.

 You are there in the dance of Christmas and Easter, in the birthday celebration of every family member, in the arguments among us, in the conversation about Amma being adamant sometime, in the conversation about you being a better cook than Amma, in the conversation about you being more hardworking and energetic than Anthony (my younger bro), in the conversation about you being so bias and protective for Vailankanny (my younger sister) in the conversation about me being so idle and fighter cock, in the conversation about Dwight Jones getting up late and nihari daalpuri  (it is one of the well known breakfast for Anglo Indians in Kolkata)😂😂 in the conversation of every get together and parties, in the conversation for making outgoing plans and last but not least in the conversation about Erica (my daughter) not being pampered by you 😢😢 we know that you loved babies so much that you showered your love to all the kids of our neighbors but I never imagined my baby would be left without it. I still feel that God had taken you very early because I never thought that there’d be days when my baby won’t have someone to call Appa. But still I don’t have any complain against Jesus because whatever he does he does for our betterment. I know you’re more than happy and content out there with Him. You’re watching over us and you’re watching Erica too. Oh! I guess You must be laughing over the things she does na? because she has got the best of you in being a comedian, the acting and making faces and all.

Bless her and watch over her Appa❤️

She sees your pic and calls you “taataa” and I promise you when she grows up I will let her know that she really have missed a teddy bear hug and a protector. I may not miss anything in life but you for Erica will always give me a feeling of that void place being there. You’ve always been my support system, you always were with me in my wrongs and rights. And I can say you are the very first partner-in-crime of mine (I used to bunk school and surprisingly you knew it) I can’t even ask for more 5-6 years from God for you to see Erica but then I feel “why not??”  There are people who live so long and God bless them; why didn’t God bless us having you for more years??😢🥺 but it’s destiny and we cannot do anything about it , just accept it and move on and always thank God for whatever he has done. Appa I just wanna say please watch over Erica and bless her.

Like father Like daughter

I love you and I always regret fighting with you 😭😭 people always realize the value of someone when they’re gone, and I am the unlucky one and the bad one to hurt you always. I am sorry Appa and I’m sorry for the times I wronged you. You have left so many memories to cherish but cry. It’s been 10 years but tears still seems fresh for your loss. It feels it has happened just yesterday. We have been strong and moved on but we always feel incompleteness of our family photo, We love you and we always do and we miss you until we meet. Be happy wherever you are. Have a great time with Jesus in his kingdom. I looooooooooooooove you. Erica loves you Appa. Kiss and hugs from her to you. We miss you , miss you a lot 😘😘😘😘

Entry of the Lord in Jerusalem

     Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord. We bless you from the house of the Lord

a week before he was crucified like a criminal, he rode into the city a king.

 I think if my blog doesn't talk about God, then I fail being a christian. When I was a child, I used to count my festivals with other religions. I used to think we have so less festivals to celebrate and all of them are just so common, its same routine, going to church , meeting relatives and friends, wishing them and having the followed lunch and dinner together, that's it! Of course as a child thinking his way was nothing unusual, that time we were in the age where our brain was like on holidays until we grow up, our heart used to be on workdays just to beat and pump, nothing more than that.We knew only two feelings, happy and sad.... we used to cry when parents used to rebuke us and be very happy when they used to get chocolate and gifts for us :D

   But now when I am grown up, I am a teen turned into a woman, I have a mind to think, I have a heart to feel more than being happy and sad,  and I have a brain which is small in size but huge and  deep like a well inside which is never over poured with the knowledge we receive day by day. Now I know, that our festival is not just wishing people and meeting relatives, NO, this is not it! Its more than what we can see and what we can understand. As a child even I thought that going to church is the same old routine but what I did not know was it has all new things to teach us every time we visit. It teaches more about our religion, about Jesus and his teachings, It makes us more responsible towards our duty of being a true CChristian. Now when I know it all, I enter church, I keep my mind fresh, my heart dying to accept him and my mind ready to know God and be closer to him day by day.

  Today its Palm Sunday. Its 13.04.2014. This is the 6th Sunday of lent season and the last Sunday before Easter. It is known as Passion Sunday, Flower Sunday and Willow Sunday as well (oh , not bad!) On this day we go to church in the morning which follows by a mass, gospel reading, preaching about the facts of palm Sunday and its value in our life through Jesus. We get palm leaves distributed among us today and we attend mass holding it in our hands. Palm Sunday includes a possession of the  assembled worshippers carrying palms. Why Palm Leaves?? why not roses or some other flowers, why only palm leaves???? that's the question many people think when they see us with a palm leaves holding in our hands and gong back home. I remember how quickly I used to ask Appa (daddy) to make flowers and cross for me out of those palm leaves as soon the Mass used to get over. I miss my dad.

Ain't these beautiful.

It was really fun when we used to make sword out of those leaves and play the palm warrior.. hahaha...

          now enough of fun stories , now lets discuss some fact stories about this holy day. SO.....

                                               

    What   is    Palm    Sunday?

 Palm Sunday commemorates the triumphal entry of Jesus in Jerusalem, where he would be crucified five days later. According to the Gospel, Jesus rode into a town on a donkey as elated and exuberant crowd hailed him as their Messiah (Savior) and spread out palm branches and cloaks (to make i more comfortable) in his path. They also attempted to hold the palm branches over him to shade him from the sun. Palm leaves are significant symbol on Palm Sunday because it stand for the entry of Jesus  into Jerusalem. It stands for the victory. The same way a donkey is referred as an animal of peace, so Jesus coming riding on a donkey is a significance that Jesus is coming in peace. They welcomed Jesus with more passion and a painful thought as those followers knew that four days later, Jesus would be crucified.

Palm Sunday marks the beginning of the Holy Week. This week is very important for Christians. This holy week continues with a Good Friday which is the last day of Jesus life and ends with Easter, the day of  his resurrection.

I feel very bad when I see most of the Christians going church as it is a work for them , its like just go and finish it. Most of us go to church occasionally. In Christianity , Sunday is considered as a Holy Sabbath Day, we being a christian should go to church in order to keep it Holy. Listen to God and his teaching. If we do not do this,we will not be able to know about the one who has sacrificed his life on the cross for us. We will not be able to know the value of the Holy Trinity (Father, Sin and the Holy Spirit) Thus we will never be able to enlighten our children and other young generations about how lucky we are being Christians. It will be shame for us if we do not understand that somehow we can loose the opportunity to teach others and lessen our sins and redeem it through teaching Gods Prayers.

If you regularly go to Church, You will feel Jesus inside you. You will be able to see with your naked eyes how much persecution he has gone through, you will be able to feel his pain and agony.

On this day I pray for all those Christians who are still adamantly unaware of His sacrifice. We should know that he knew this from before, he has all of us in his mind, He knew it that He has to give his life in order to save ours, but still he did not reused to, he did not refused to his Almighty Lord, His unending passion and love he showed us in his way. Why cant we show him the same love by doing things which makes him happy. We can, right? 

On this Holt Occasions I pray for y'all, that the spirit of this Holy occasions, the warmth of the season make your heart bloom with joy and happiness.

 Have a Blessed Palm Sunday, Be a True Christian!!!

Jesus Is My All In All

Today its Christmas, Everyone goes to the church to celebrate Jesus Birthday with their family and friend.. On this same day a girl entered the church, grabbed a pew and sat quietly having no one besides her, no friends, no family and no near and dear ones, only eyes full of tears and heart full of pain. She stared at the statue of Jesus, It felt like each and every movement of her pupils were asking so many questions to God..

Why I am alone today?
Where are my friends?
Where is the person who says he loves me?
Where is the person who claims that he is there for me?
Where are the people who pretend to be in her thick and thin?

as these questions came out of her heart, her eyes sparkled..sparkled with tears.. giving her support and whispering into her ears to let them come out, enforcing her to flow away her pain through them with a promise that her grief will become less.

She took out a tissue, held it at the corner of her eyes and went against what her tears were telling her to do.. she did not let them come out, she gathered herself again and stares at the statues, She is feeling something shattering down inside her but she wanted to ignore it , she ain't wanna cry!
At that moment something happened, She stared at the corner of the Church pillar, It felt like she was talking to someone...She was intending to communicate with something, something strange which was erasing her pains for the moment, I guess she saw something which gives her the strength to hold herself back and again fight with her worry and woes.. She smiles and get off the pew, wipes her tear again before it comes out. This time She looked content, she looked happy, She looked satisfied as in someone had given all the answers of her questions... she was not the same person at all who had entered the Church.. That spark was there again.. but this time it had a different aspect, the spark had already changed its way from her eyes to her face. She left the Church as quietly as she had entered. Ya'll must be as curious to know what was that which cast a spell on her, As the way I was curious too what was THAT thing which turns her face from sad to happy..???

       The answer had got tears in my eyes, made my tongue so numb. I felt so pure by heart. There was a shiver which ran down inside me. Something which filled me with hope, joy, happiness, contentedness. Something which inspired me to believe in the sanctity of Churches. My Dear Friends, The corner of the church pillar where the girl was staring , She saw nothing but only A Frame which had a picture of a Jesus holding his arms outstretched and looking peacefully at the person whoever looks at'em. There was something written on it which I think was the only and the best answer for all the questions of that girl and sometimes its all of us who go through the pain of life

"Jesus Is My All In All"

This was the line which had given that girl a new hope to live, new hope to smile and a new hope to be happy even when there is no one beside her.. I think those lines were few but very true.. I have hope in Jesus, Do You..?

                                                             Merry Christmas To Ya'll!!