Just Another day!

Hello Ladies....

           Today its 14th Feb, A Valentine's day. Where all the couples are planning to go out for a candle light dine, for gifts and presents and flowers, for a long promenade hand in hand, someone must have already thought to ask their gurl's hand for marriage (thinking its a right time to pop the question as the gurl might get on the rocks to say NO :p), to kiss and make up, its a day of Red and Black, its a day of heart shaped balloons floating in the sky, cards & roses (specially red bunches) & obviously a day for lots of promotion in stores to make people go through damages in buying solitaires & diamonds! *banao banao, aur chutiya banao* (make fool out of everyone) and here is Me, on the other hand celebrating the Tom's in Town. hmph!! It had made it a just another day for me, nothing special today types. I tell you my stomach is paining so badly , I think all my guts are playing "tug-of-war" and the half of it can come out at any moment! I am not feeling good, i am feeling so restless, so finicky as a cat, Its the day when i am not in best of my moods... Baby called me twice to change my mood, to make me laugh and convincing me to go out, but nothings worked out except I ended throwing nails at him without any reason. Sorry baby for behaving such a bitch to you, its not your fault at all, Its me who is in a don't-mess-with-me mood today *pout*

      I Think I should go into hibernation mode which may include doing absolutely nothing but jus pressing a pillow against my stomach and hiding my face into the cushion, I do not want to do something or say something for which I regret later. Mumma please turn off the light and you outta of the door!! Pah-leez!

Later huns

Bubye *pout*‬

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Apu's Wedding Was Awesome!!!

Ello Sweople!! How ya'll have been doing... Gr8? Fantastic? Good? Not Good or Bitchy?? I know, this changing weather is effecting on our daily moods too, innit? I think It  has made me go under the weather twice in a week.Whatever, I wanna tell ya'll bout a super wedding ceremony I have attended before I hit the blanket to get some sweat which will sweep the fever off my body (mumma used to say this). I cannot just imagine that few days back I was looking so beautiful with the make up ofcource in the wedding and now I am looking like a tucked chicken in a blanket :(

oh my my! look at me just look at me ;)

love this saree, Baby has gifted me this saree and said "wear it if u wanna look good on the wedding day" whaaaaaat? HawHawHaw  Haw mean of u baby to say like that! but I can excuse u for this cuz the fact that you bought something for me *with love*. I am not so comfy in sarees, I don't wear'em cuz I cant handle it well, I get basophobia, (though it never leads me to not want to stand up at all) nevertheless I wore it. I think I did quite a justice with baby's thought *shrug*

sweat and heat of a blanket has made me a boiled chicken

and now look at me... I never thought I would look so ugly in double the amount of beautiful I looked in the wedding, I wish fever extinct like dinosaurs. Fever doesn't cut it off, I will still blog and fight with you moron.
Anyway, one good thing which gave me wings is my pictures are 100 times more than the bride [not boasting hun, kasam se (I swear)] and the bad things was everyone in the wedding was hitting the same question like a bullet at me!! everyone was like tum kab kar rahi ho shaadi (when are you getting married) ?? At one point of time I wondered if I have not come in some family settlement questionnaire. This is why I hate to attend any marriage, cuz I get bummed when people look at me, give a pathetically irritating smile and say "you are next"! Arrrgh !! how badly I wanna see'em in someone's funeral and tell'em the same phrase wickedly.. Oh God, Please forgive me for this Such a bitch I am. Anyway, I am a self-dependent and a grown up girl ya, I know I will definitely get married when I will feel the time is right, I have a person who loves me with no string attached, he never forces his decision on me then why you people are so bothered about it, Yeah I don't mind with their faaltu questions as long as they admittedly want to invest their money for my marriage :p, I dunno, mumma also irritates me asking the same question some time (where do I go now??) "do you think your damaad ji (son-in-law) will run away by trampling over your daughter's pride and crushing her love and affection?? Really?" [arched eyebrow] Perhaps you need to reinterpret your data so that you would never think like that again. honey I don't wanna spoil my mood by talking about all of urs nonsense questions! *bah*.
So Where were we? Ah! The wedding ... Refresh it again with some beautiful pics :)

Ain't we look made for each other ?

 

Two very important men in my life!!(Baby and my BFF, Love'em to bits)

 There was a time when I was never into Social Networking that much.But now I am amazed seeing the menu wall of my Blackberry. Its full of so many Social Apps :D

 
Somehow I feel social networking has played an important role in my life, It has improved me being more friendly and  extrovert, It had got me the most wonderful BFF in my life (Yes, I met him on FB) and I am happy to see that my baby's  relatives supposed to be my would be in laws know me without even meeting me before, not even once just because of FB. They know me though Facebook... hahahaha.. It really gives me an immense feeling that I am sososo so famous on FB, I sometime get worried as well cuz they all stalk on me and my oh-not-their-types Pics and statuses *biting nails*. So what, everything doesn't come handy. Everything has some pros and cons, even Life is a part of it. Sometime it gives us so much and sometime nothing. Sometime its a bowl of cherries and sometime it throws lemon at us.But ya'know This is Life and so it will e but you do not stop living.. innit?
I gotta go now before my boss peeps in again.. You know why.. I told ya'll that I use my office PC to blog, don't ya'll remember?? never mind. Isse pehle that horse faces bitch comes to check on me and I do that same mistake I did last time, Imma logging of preserving my good memories with ya'll. Enjoy it and Enjoy life too..
Bubye... Tatas!!

 

How long will one Compromise??

No greetings, no smileys, no gossips & no discussion... Today I just wanna share my pain with ya'll.. I dunno where to start from.. Everything has become so dark suddenly,everything has become so hazy just like my mobile screen, yes my mobile screen gets hazy as I am writing this blog, cuz tears are just blocking my vision,every time I try to control on it, its building up in an invisible reservoir & not stopping to shed ☹
People find stories everywhere, there are stories before & after death, there are stories behind every smile & in every single drop of tears, there are stories for someone's happiness & there are stories about everyone's pain.my real life has become a sad, very sad story too.. I'm very simple & sober, I was very much fascinated with love, it was like that unknown chapter which I knew I will reveal someday, how & when? I did not know that.. This question used to make me feel curious as well as excited too, I was very happily ready to fall in love,I used to think there is no wrong in being in love cuz there is no wrong happens in love, I was just following the happy ending of every love stories but forgot to remember the real stories of life, of my friends who have faced the pain & taken the plunge to live with it.. A pain called LOVE.
finally I found someone with whom I cud be in love with no string attached! But I just did not realise that its always take two people to build up a relationship, two people who understand each other, who are always supportive to each other. I did not wanted someone who will show me what love is, I wanted someone who will show me how to keep relationship!!
Its been 7 yrs of my relationship in which I feel I am just a participant. I dnt know whether this relationship is based on our affection or on our compromise. There are always situations created in which my option are like "either compromise & be happy or just don't compromise & suffer." I had to choose one, & I had chosen to compromise in every way, but I realised there is no happiness even if I do compromise, I am not satisfied with my relationship cuz it takes me no where, wherever I try to find a solution it always leads me to the darkness & loneliness,
"I Have a Partner!! I Have a Partner!!" I find myself shouting like a fool but no one to responds to it. We think there has to be some big reason when people really fight because of & just walk away.. NO!! There is not BIG reasons always at least not in my case. I ain't expect him to get stars from the sky but I really want him to love me to the moon & back. There are so small small things which come'on, I mean a small boy will also do it if he loves someone.. But why are'nt you DMJ!!! I'm a kind of a person who thinks too much on small small things & cry on it too (I guess, I have a small reservoir fitted into my eyes for this) we love each other equally (as DMJ says) then why its only me who cries, who feels the pain, who keeps her eyes wide open at dawn to dusk, My Eyes!! they work on producing tears whole night!! whenever we fight, I cry whole night & think that how can his conscience allow him to be so normal after hurting someone, how can he be so cool, so careless, these questions always finds only one answer & that is that he does not love me & he cares a damn...
I am broken now,each time he hurts me, my heart breaks into pieces, & now I'm so vulnerable that I can't gather those broken pieces together again... I think if a person has not learn to keep his relationship good in 7 YEARS, what will he try in future.. oh well yeah, that person will succeed in ruining my future for sure but I can't afford to make my world Hell in here on this earth.. I can tolerate the heartbreak now rather than spoiling my mental & health condition which I will face in a broken marriage relationship later, Noooooo, I can't afford to do that baby....

I better QUIT!!

God strengthen me..

 

 

Appy Anniversary To Meeee!! ☺

Holla...!!!
Haw y'all been ol doin? Life is so busy foh us that we dnt get time foh ourselves... We dnt get time to realise whts gone and whts coming in our way... Hahaha!! I feel so amazed as well when I look back at my old times.. It alwys strike many question in my head and in my mind that what have I achieved so far??
In my life, in my career life, family responsibilities, friends buzz and my LOVE life?? Yes... Today that feeling of being so confident in my love has grown strong to stronger.. When I realise last midnight that its my 4th Anniversary of ma Engagement!!! *grinnn* can ya'll believe it!!! Yes its 19th April 2013.. My Engagement Anniversary!!!
 i really like this blogger putting her thoughts in a blog so wonderfully, my all thumbs up to the blog "Northern Belle Diaries"....
i would really love to be inspired by them and write such experience for u all and speak through my Heart :)